First day of kindergarten tommorow! wow!We are ready, I think...
Where has the time gone? My baby girl has turned into a 5 yr old.I am actually pretty good with her going to "the big school", as she and I are both ready. SHE needs the challenge for sure...and routine and friends.She still hasn't forgiven me for taking her away from her friends and life in Berwyn.I thought she would be over it by now...but alas,NO!And she does not really understand that those friends have moved on with their lives.

Ok thats my mothers lament for today...

So... Yesterday I took some teenagers to the Okanagan LDS 10k and half marathon event in Kelowna...I ran-walked the 10k...yeah.It was fun actually and as I was doing it I got to thinking about next year and how I would like to be able to run MORE of it... so it was a great incentive for me to get in better shape this year!I will definately be there next year! I won`t do run on a Sunday, and they are few and far between on Saturdays.I will be there! As I was walking I really felt like the tortoise...HAHAHA...but considering most people rode their bikes...I didn`t mind being at the back of the pack. I worked WAY harder than them!I am proud of myself.

I am doing a home study course from Thoughts Alive called:
Family Time and Money Freedom. It is slowly changing my way of thinking(as mentioned in my other posts).This week I am on lesson 4:The Stickman Concept.Basically I am learning about how my concious and subconcious mind and body work together.It is truly fascinating stuff.
«our conscious mind: awareness
ability to accept or reject ideas
ability to create new ideas
Thats our filter.We all have programs running in our concious minds that determine what we accept or reject.We can delete and upload new ones though if we want.That`s what is interesting to me.I knew about filters and such but I never really took the time to know what mine were.Especially with money.I never really got it that my program has been...
Money is scarce,you must struggle to obtain it.

And so I have created that reality for myself!

I am in the process of uploading a new program:
My life is abundant.Money flows easily into my life as I need it!
I like that better!

It takes work everyday to change the programming...but I am getting there!I literally have to spend time every morning having those thoughts and feeling how it feels to have my dreams.Meditating so to speak.

Tony and I have already created a new reality in our lives.His name is Cole and he is a Black Lab. A few weeks ago I mentioned maybe getting a dog to have a added protection around the yard.So we started preparing the yard and house(vaccuum law of prosperity),and searching online and in papers for a dog.Now it had to be the RIGHT dog(personality wise) for our family.We didn`t want a puppy,it had to be medium sized and our price point was under 200...oh and MALE.We walked toward the goal and met it halfway...that`s the beauty of it.So within a couple weeks we saw an ad in the local paper for a rescue place nearby and we both seperately felt that we should call it.SO we did. They had LOTS of dogs and so we went out and looked.There he was!Amazing!And he is the most perfect dog ever!

That is creating.We didn`t do it alone...we worked with the universe and it happened.So if we can create that reality than what is different than creating an abundant money filled,financially free reality...

The point is there is NO difference.Its all what we create.

An amazing month of learning....

It is now AUGUST! WOW! It has been some kind of summer!I started this blog basically to keep myself amused while T was at Basic,and so now that he is home I am like...now what?I want to keep writing though and so I shall press on.I think I mentioned before that writing is cathartic for me...I have always enjoyed it,particularily in my youth.I used to have a pretty good collection of poetry that I had written.I am not sure where it has gone though...kind of sad really.So it is what it is.Nothing more.
I have attracted some amazing things into my life in the past month...
After reading The Secret I was talking to a friend(who is on that same path)and she mentioned a book called Hidden Treasures,and some websites that the author has.I felt it resonate with me so I wrote them down and checked them out later.That has led me into some serious life learning about not just the law of attraction but also other universal laws that we are all subject to.
1)Law of Perpetual Transmutation
2)Law of Relativity
3)Law of Vibration
4)Law of Polarity
5)Law of Rythym
6)Law of Cause and Effect
7)Law of Gender/Gestation
8)Vaccuum Law of Prosperity

This learning has really started to change how I look at myself and the Universe(and God).In a good way though.I think I have a good spiritual foundation,but there is ALWAYS growth that needs to happen. i think this year(and all its craziness)has been a sort of refiners fire. Its necessary for us to pay a price for knowledge and growth.And its ok.Its all relative anyways,because there is always something that could be much worse or much better.It really depends on how we look at it.I have realized finally too that God desires to bless me with my dreams and wants.I knew that on a intellectual level but I now realize that more in my heart.I think alot of us are raised with the belief that we have to struggle and that life is SO hard.That was the underlying concept in my home.We unconciously take those beliefs into our adult lives.I am not saying that life doesn't and shouldn't have challenges,but we can look at and approach them differently.We CAN change our thought patterns and attract better things and circumstances into our lives.We don't need to create more drama.So a great big thankyou to thoughts alive for bringing good things to the world!http://www.thoughtsalive.com

hello again!

its been a couple weeks since my last post...I have been busy with life and kids.

So ok...T goes to basic training, then 2 weeks in contracts of all things the SWINE FLU! yeah.bizarre.So I of course was totally freaked out and not knowing how he was doing all the time he was in quarantine.Seems like for all the military talk of supporting families, they fail miserably.the only phonecall I got was from a fellow private...and that was because T ASKED HIM TO!no official phone calls telling me that my husband was terribly ill.Nada.Oh yeah and all of a sudden when there were 5 people in quarantine with this,they decide to change the status of the illness to a basic flu.yeah right...they just don`t want to report it to health canada and get the whole place quarantined.Whatever,that is their issue...mine is the health of my husband.When I did phone to get a status about his health I got brushed off...oyeah we`ll get the message to his staff to call his wife....didn`t happen.makes me wonder what would happen if he was on his deathbed.and you know what...I really did not know at the time!



So anyways this was a catalist for him...i guess he has had a wake up call and has realized that the CF isn`t what he want for himself after all...so he is coming home in the next 2 weeks and then what...I have no idea! Its cool to touch a dream even if you don`t quite reach it.sometimes you realize that you are on the wrong ladder and thats ok!better now than later I guess...although it did put us through the ringer through this whole process of seeming nothingness! sometime we will understand this whole year and all the crazy wierdness that it has been! I so don`t get it at all...
guess I will have to change the title of my blog soon...

My Daughter is a Rockstar and I have the "Secret"

well...It's official, I now have a 5 yr old! Wow! We had a fabulous blow out movie/rock star party complete with filming of 2 music videos! It was a blast!Hopefully this will be a great memory for her life!

So that was fun!

Ok so I have been reading The Secret and I think it is fabulous! I had seen the video too about a year or so ago...and it was interesting but reading the words speaks louder to me. So I have started using it and you know what it actually works! I am creating experiences that are so wonderful.Like yesterday I was sitting there thinking about T and I said to myself...I REALLY want to talk to him in the next 5 minutes and have a wonderful experience with that...now originally I had presumed he would call in the evening...but I thought why not let's try this out. So I focused like they say on the feeling of it as if it had happened and how wonderful it would feel to hear his voice...well you don't have to be a genius to figure out what happened next!lol ya he called and we DID have a wonderful talk! I was actually laughing when I picked up the phone! He was like what are you so happy about? I was like...oh I am just happy you called! I was waiting for it! So wow! So I have decided that I am going to Quebec in the summer to see T for a weekend(kidless)...I don't know the how yet but that isn't my job to figure out...I just have to be open to promptings and it will work out.So it will...I will post pictures when I get back!Isn't that exciting?

keeping a stiif upper lip...

Another day has come and gone,and right now at this very minute I am pleased with that thought.I want the days to go SO fast that I don't even feel them...I want to keep SO busy that I just pass into unconciousness at night...zooom! so my job right now is to keep a stiff upper lip and be strong and present for my husband and children...but what if I don't wanna?what if I just want to not be strong for a few minutes? I think I will allow myself that luxury tonight.Then I will get past it as I always do and move on.I have been through way too much in my life to be a quitter,more than most people in my life know.
I have a favorite hymn that I have been memorizing all 7 verses to and it totally helps me to feel stonger.Its called How Firm a Foundation:

How firm a foundation ye saints of the Lord
Is laid for your faith in his excellent word!
What more can he say than to you he hath said
Who unto the Saviour for refuge have fled?

In every condition,in sickness in health,in poverty's vale or abounding in wealth,at home or abroad on the land or the sea
As thy days may demand so thy succor shall be

Fear not I am with thee oh be not dismayed, for I am thy God and will still give thee aid
I'll strengthen thee help thee and cause thee to stand
upheld by my righteous omnipotent hand.

When through the deep waters I call thee to go
the rivers of sorrow shall not thee o'er flow
for I will be with thee thy troubles to bless
and sanctify to thee they deepest distress

When through fiery trials thy pathway shall lie
My grace all sufficient shall be thy supply
the flame shall not hurt thee I only design
thy dross to consume and thy gold to refine

E'en down to old age, all my people shall prove
My sov'reign eternal ,unchangeable love
and then when gray hairs shall their temples adorn
Like lambs shall they still in my bosom be borne

The soul that on Jesus hath leaned for repose
I will not I cannot desert to his foes
That soul though all hell shall endeavour to shake
I'll never,no never,no never forsake

That was very cathartic for me...I typed the whole thing out.It is a very beautiful,comforting hymn. The fact is we ALL have troubles and trials in our lives...no one is immune.but they are there to polish off our rough edges and refine the gold that is within.But the process is not easy, and I suspect that it is not intended to be so either.thankfully there is comfort for me in knowing that it is all a part of a much bigger plan, and that we don't have to be alone in the journey.We are all children of a loving Heavenly Father who loves us so much more than we can possibly imagine...
ok I think I am feeling better now...
Man I miss writing...I used to write poems and short stories all the time and somewhere along the way I stopped.Its so healing.Honestly it is wonderful...I have a feeling that I will be posting ALOT!
Stay tuned...

Our trip to the uh...''circus''

The circus is in town!hooray hooray!What a splendid way to entertain the children thinks I.And even better than that there is a 4:15 show...not too late...can have the kids in bed on time!Perfect! So off we head "free" tickets in hand. Free by the way is a very relative term, as anyone who has attented such an event knows all too well.What it really means is that the children get in for "free" BUT the adults are 20 bucks! EACH! AND then they sell things like light wands and such for like 12 bucks each and the popcorn and all that food that goes with circus attending.
Nevertheless I am willing to do this for the children...C in particular.So we get there,a stash of microwave popcorn tucked away in the diaper bag AND a light wand that I had purchased for a couple bucks last month.I am not ashamed to admit that either!
First thing that hits me whe we walk through the door? BIG SIGN:no outside food or drink allowed.ya whatever thinks I.I am on a budget and my children are worth it.
Next thing that hits me: CASH ONLY
WHAT??? suck.So I say to the girl at the table "that would have been nice to know"...I really wasn't trying to be snotty at all but I think she took it that way cause she hit me with this HUGE attitude.So I say "I will be back" thinking in my head where oh where is a bank machine in walking distance cause it's HOT outside and I have a 4 year old and a baby in stroller...ah 7-11 is not far! so we walk over there and pull 40 dollars out(plus 1.50 cause its not my bank).We walk back to the circus arena and finally ready to see the circus...
BUT for some reason the money that I had just had was GONE!not in my wallet,not in my diaper bag...just gone! I honestly have NO idea! Did I even pull it out of the machine??maybe...I think so...I don't know!the bank machine receipt is most definately there...yippee.by this time the circus had WAY started and I was not about to do this all over again.SOOO...now to break the news to C..."hey you know I really can't find the money sweetheart...how about we go to the waterpark and then DQ for dinner?" OK! phew! She loves DQ cause of the playplace...so that's always a good bribe.
So we went with that plan and it worked for us...we were sad to miss the circus and resigned to try again next year.But the most important thing is that we made the most of it;and C was a good sport.

Wierdness happens...

Here is an introduction to me and my family and our life...welcome to our world!I am a stay at home mommy of 2 little ones...C is 4(5 on friday!!) and D is 8 months...

We belong to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints...and we are very busy and happy in the church!Neither me nor my husband grew up in the church so it was seperate life decisions that brought us to it and then together...best thing we ever did.

We have just recently become(or are in the process) of becoming a Canadian Military Family...my husband T(Private T now!)is at BMQ or what is otherwise known as Basic Training!I can hardly believe that our life is at this spot!and I hate it and love it at the same time...how wierd is that! I am so proud of him for following his dream and going for it but I am so not enjoying him being gone! and its only day 2! So much of my blog will be rambling about that and the rest will be random thoughts and things going on around here at our crazy funny farm!

Ok so my kids...they are so very different C is all girl...even as a baby just layed back didn`t care much about the physical aspect of life...crawled at 9 months and walked at 15...I was ok with that as she was a very easy baby! she is very talented verbally as she said her first word with meaning at 5 months and was talking in small sentances well before a year... and never baby talk either...smart girl.now at 5 she is like a little adult in many ways...I am excited to see what she does with her life! I predict

either a teacher or a reporter.

Now we have baby no.2! D is ALL boy... he knows what he wants and doesnt have a problem making noise to get it.He is LOUD and PROUD!

Not that he cries alot either,he`s pretty happy...just loudly happy.I feel sorry for the people at church cause he is very distracting but they don`t seem to mind for the most part!and he goes nonstop!He gets that from his daddy...Private T.seems that daddy was and is the same way!good thing cause he`ll need that energy for the next 14 weeks!personally I am just grateful for nap/bedtime!!well at least he isn`t walking/running yet as some babies are at this age.I predict that isn`t far off..right now he just commando crawls at the speed of light.guess maybe he is getting ready for a military career too!

As for me I am adjusting to being a Canadian Military Wife..with all the joys and pains that come with...but I do feel that this is the right decision for our little family and that this sacrifice will pay off in the end...but oh it feels HUGE right now!

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